Speechless, in a way

I often run into the problem of not being able to find the right words to describe what i am trying to say or how i feel. I am not exactly speechless, but overflowed in thought. It is the international day of peace. There is a big peace rally this weekend, the progressives have a good agenda of things to be involved in. Music is good, classes and the such. Church shopping is not so easy. . . . i want to find a group of ppl who care. difficult part is most of the groups on campus are highly conservative, this shouldn't be a problem but it can get to be a comfortablity issue. I don't want to stir up things that offend ppl, i just want to be able to ask questions and talk openly. I guess that is what i am looking for when i look into doing an online bible study. Maybe it is the way i was raised that i don't agree with the way some of the scripture is interpretted. . . i really just don't know. but what i do know is i love getting involved in human rights and politics, i love talking about theology and studing it, and music is a beautiful world where you don't need words. . .

i need to take a break from leadership and concentrate on me for a while, but it is harder than one would think. I can't find a group that meets my needs for bible study despite how hard i've been looking. . . and i try not to, but i do take a leadership role in my emerging group of friends. The tutor, the one who will make decisions, just leadership stuff, notice other ppl in the group and the dynamics. . . i was taken care of this summer and now have to walk the fine line again. Idk, but what i do know is that i do have to go and take care of myself a bit. . . time is the only issue. Yet what a poor excuse. Eh, i am speechless. . .