What is right?

Okay, trying to adjust back from camp, Humans are facinating creatures of routine. Ever think about the simple routines we have? From the things i do at my locker every morning to what i do online everyday routines are wierd. Being gone for a week was good but strange. I missed a lot of things, but sometimes it was simply great to get away. I don't know though, i had quite a bit of unexpected stress. Trying to get back into doing all the things i do in a day is wierd however. I tried to play something i the piano and it was just gone from my head for like 30 seconds or so, just strange. We are learning vocab in spanish about hospitals and accidents which doesn't seem wierd but the verbs are translated into to hurt oneself or to cut oneself and it is just uncomfortable. . . don't know where i am right now. Haven't cut for almost 3 weeks now. I guess i just long for intelligent converstation, not fighting with people. I can't seem to talk to people without it ending up in one of two situations. I either get "wow you are so smart" or argument and them walking away upset. I'm sorry i am passionate and ethical. Or society doesn't do things because it's right anymore. I can't help it, but here, in mayville, it's frustrating. Think through things, why do we pay taxes? Not so the government can steal you money, so they can use it to help you! Public Schools perhaps? Iye. So some of us give and give to create the best quality of life for all those around us and some just suck it up without remorse. I don't get it. Are people really so thick to not see someone struggling in front of them? Or do they simply ignore it? I am exhausted working daily for the benifit of those who don't notice or care. I love them but i can't do everything and sometimes it feels as if i have too. I am tired in every way and need my own time, but doesn't everyone? Will life always be like this? Some people simply doing things because they need to be done and no one else will take care of it? I am grateful i do have friends that notice me enough to take care of me, for i still can't seem to find time to. I am hanging on, but still right next to that cliff and still at a jogging pace alittle too fast to be safe. Yet i tell myself to keep going instead of taking a step back. What is right?